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madame
hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Thursday, May 11, 2006 12:19 PM
sometimes, just feel like giving up.
sometimes, wondering why such thing has to happen.
what exactly is the cause?

bad mood, bad temper had been knocking on my door of my heart
WITHOUT me knowing it.
thinking back, i vent so much anger but the result didn't change.
you think you know me well, but actually you don't.
i'm a mysterious person.
i think i know you well, but actually i don't.
you aren't a mysterious person, but an unpredictable outcome will happen
AND then, i will not know what to do. so, is MY fault.
don't expect everyone to be like you,
i'm retarded in everything, but that does not mean i cannot learn.
i may learn it very slowly, and if you don't have the patience
then, DON'T bother me, for i'm not worth your trouble.
you changed your mind now and then, i can't do anything.
but when i changed my mind about something, you can be DU LAN
and all i have to do is to :
-think of ways to cheer you up [which i didn't succeed]
-sacrifice myself to make sure i do the original plan[i always get scolded]
-hate myself more and the people who caused me to change the plan.
when i really have no choice but to change it, you simply get pissed off.
but when you change something without letting me know until when i ask you
you just don't give a damn about it.

"breaking up" has become part of our life.
every now and then, you spoke the words"break up"
and that's because you are pissed off/ jealous.
to me, is like, WTH!

you are smart, but lazy. ask you study, you will get pissed off
so what's the point of me having to lie to people??
have you ever spare a thought for me? sometimes, i really doubt so.

a miracle for CHEMISTRY!
i'm one of the 3 who, got a1. haha.
can't believe it.
spend so much time and energy quarrelling with you
yet, i can do quite well.
sigh

really hate myself.